Odd morning...

I woke up at five, too congested to sleep and feeling grumpy about it. I read for a bit: The Way of the Wizard by Deepak Chopra, and no wonder I admire that man: he thinks like I do. Not that I'm famous or wise, but the mindset is the same. I use the word 'magician' (thinking of the Tarot, primarily) but the concept is identical.

I'm very happy to have this book. I'm debating whether to get B.K.S. Iyengar's new book that combines "Light on Yoga" with the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, with (I believe) commentary. I already have two copies of "Light on Yoga" - a much-used book in my life, and my earliest edition is so well-used it has loose pages and is held together with a rubber band. I have at least one copy of the "Yoga Sutras", but not Iyengar's translation or commentary. It would be worth $30 to hear what he has to say. Have I talked myself into it? Marcelle was talking about a trip to Chapters at some point today.

I think of Robin Sharma's advice: "Never hesitate to buy a book." Oh, such dangerous words of wisdom!

I fell asleep again and had a dream of self-hate, stress, and pining for the person I love but can't have. Again, it was a dream that took place at a convention: I don't seem to ever dream about work, or any of the things I do in the daytime. I dream about conventions, as if my dreamscape life is one endless fan con. (This may be only too true!) Sad this time, because the con was over and I had to leave. I woke up thinking: "Why do I feel so down? Is this PMS?" and checked the calendar. True enough: spot on for PMS day. Hmmph.

Beautiful bad!Chloe

I want to thank kelex for making this conceptually wonderful LJ icon. Yeah, I'm madly in love with sophisticated, scheming, fast-thinking, bad Chloe, who is so sexy and smart and vulnerable. Yeah.

I also want to thank acampbell for seeing it, knowing I'd love it, and asking for it for me. Eagle-eyed and insightful.

Maybe I'll go and watch "Exodus" again.

Good word....

I was reading cosmic's comments on Firefly, and she said something I really liked:

"It's the allyay show. Everything goes. No pairing seems too impossible. (except Book/just about anyone, but that's because he's a man of the scary hair)."

That is one of the reasons I find the show so brilliant and wonderful, and one of the reasons I have trouble writing fanfic for it. My favourite pairing is Mal/Inara, but I couldn't write them together. I just couldn't. Otherwise I could put anyone with anyone, and I'd be tempted to slash someone with Book just because everyone keeps excluding him, and he might be really sensual and cool and know all about tantra.

Okay, so he doesn't. Celibate order. Right. Well, we all know sex with priests is hot.

The point being, this is the only show I can think of offhand where the pairing that really excites me is het. And where I love every single one, every one, of the main characters. Love 'em with a passion.

(Smiling to remember naked, grinning Mal at the end of "Trash".)

Zero Plus

I just read a CLex story I really liked, that I thought was exceptional. It's Zero Plus by rivier.

A few wonderful lines, in Lex's voice: "'It's okay, Clark, I understand,' I say, because if you love someone it's right and it should be the easiest thing to use the tools you have to hand, your icy heart, your impervious cloak, to close around you and spare them the pain."

"The Talon. Look at that. I created my very own little hell-on-earth.... It's like Pinball of the Damned, and Satan is proving to be a wizard on the flippers."

This story did a lot to cheer me up on a bad day.

Frustration

Yesterday I was playing a lovely mah jong game that had Michael Rosenbaum on all the tiles. It was a joy to play, I tell you.

I'll swear I bookmarked the place but I can't find it now. Can anyone come to my rescue and send me the URL?

Living in hope....