Torchwood and Doctor Who...

[fajrdrako]

Funny how our fannish reactions change. slodwick asked about pairings we liked. Now, any time before "The Last of the Time Lords", I'd have said my favourite pairing in fandom currently was Captain Jack Harkness and the Doctor, no question, no hesitation.

But then I found I was having trouble conceptualizing that or writing it. It's as if they... broke my pairing. Destroyed my concept of it. I didn't think that was even possible. No wonder I'm still scrambling to get my post-series-3 bearings.

And everyone else seems to be squeeing about the Master, but he's part of my mixed and troubled reactions. I'm sorting it all out in my head and it's getting easier, but not as it was. I think all I need to do is get a mental handle on it and write a fic that makes it all work for me. Really, that's all.

Meanwhile... I'm still flinching. A little.

Which is why I've refocussed on Torchwood and away from Doctor Who till I get oriented again.

Comments

[silverwhistle.livejournal.com]

I don't see how it's broken.

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's not. I continue to think this through. Because the reaction is emotional, not intellectual, it needs emotional repair rather than thought. I'll get there. Give me time.

Meanwhile, I really did love the Master, and Martha's heroism, so I shouldn't be complaining!