Stricken with plague...

[fajrdrako]

Those who refuse to make New Year's resolutions because they always break them anyway miss the point. Making resolutions is a cleansing ritual of self-assessment and repentance that demands personal honesty and reinforces humility. Breaking them is part of the cycle. - Eric Zorn

Ah-hah! Wasn't that what I was saying? Hmm? Seems Eric Zorn is a Chicago Tribune columnist. He sees that breaking the resolutions is a (probably necessary) part of what's going on here. Resolutions are meant to be made, keeping them is a whole other issue. If keeping them were easy, everyone would be doing it.

So: it's what, January 3? And I 'broke' most of my resolutions today by being too sick to do much of anything. I went to work until my co-workers got fed up with my coughing, sneezing and grumbling and sent me home around noon. I ran into Jacques on Elgin Street on the way home - he's sick too. Faugh.

I really should have put watch more "Torchwood" on my resolution list, because that's all I've felt like doing and all I have been doing all afternoon. That, and eating chicken soup and drinking tea. And downloading beautiful screencaps from "Captain Jack Harkness".

Comments

[dewline.livejournal.com]

Your co-workers had the right idea, however selfish their motives were(or weren't).

Hoping you get better soon...

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I hope so too. Being sick is (by definition) miserable. If I don't feel better in the morning, I'm off to the doctor.

[kikibug13.livejournal.com]

*comforts*

I did suggest not going to work in the first place, didn't I?

Anyhoo... I cheated myself out of watching the last two eps last night, but. Can you guess _what_ was on that icon(s) that got me crying at work yesterday? Even though I _knew_ all the stuff about further seasons?

Again, I hope you feel better. Stay warm, and do visit the doctor if you aren't feeling better!

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I did suggest not going to work in the first place, didn't I?

Yes. Words of wisdom. Really.

Can you guess _what_ was on that icon(s) that got me crying at work yesterday?

Well... the thing that really got to me was audial, not visual - the sound of the TARDIS. So.... was it something about Jack's death?

Stay warm, and do visit the doctor if you aren't feeling better!

I'll do that. I'd hoped to feel better with sleep, but I keep waking up coughing, or unable to breathe.... Yes, I'll call the doctor in the morning.

[kikibug13.livejournal.com]

It was an icon of Jack in the morgue. That made me cry... He so didn't want to live (he did say to Gwen that he'd shoot Suzie rather than have her become immortal).
And even though I knew that he'll be back in DW; and even though I knew there is TW season 2 and he'd better be in it, when I _saw_ his face frozen... it just hit a button for me, I guess. And so I had to go see the screencaps to know - how did it happen, and what happened afterwards.

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

It was an icon of Jack in the morgue. That made me cry...

Woo. Yes. Powerful image.

He so didn't want to live (he did say to Gwen that he'd shoot Suzie rather than have her become immortal).

Do you think that is still true? I think he didn't want to live in "Everything Changes" but... no pun intended... a lot has changed since then. He recovered his capacity for love, for example. (And the pain that goes with it.) I think he is glad to be alive again in the end, especially if he will see the Doctor again. But even without that - before that - I think he was glad to be alive again with Gwen and the Torchwood crew and his earth-saving work cut out for him.

[kikibug13.livejournal.com]

I was quoting "They keep killing...", not Everything Changes.

I suspect the 12th ep may have changed things; I am close to certain that the ending of the 13th ep mush change his death wish; but as of the Suzie ep... if not wishing to die, at least he would prefer not to inflict immortality to another.

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I was quoting "They keep killing...", not Everything Changes.


Hmm. I'm not sure at this point where Jack's feelings were; this is an excuse to watch "They Keep Killing..." again to check it out and contemplate. By the end of that episode he was at least receptive to sex and affection from Ianto. (Was that that symptom or cause of subsequent changes in him? Hard to say.) I think there are many signals in that episode to imply that he loved Gwen, and I equate his returning capacity for love with his more positive acceptance of life. This isn't a clear continuum... he loved Estelle in "Small Worlds", he was never entirely cut off from others even when he wanted to be able to die.

if not wishing to die, at least he would prefer not to inflict immortality to another.

That much is true. But I think he comes to accept that, even though it depresses him. Immortal life as ... just another state. Not a torment.

By the time of "Captain Jack Harkness" and "End of Days", my reading is that he wanted to live, if only because he thought the world needed him. He isn't sure what for, he's looking for a purpose in his survival, and believes he will find it - and that goal is reason enough to live. Well, no, maybe not reason enough, love is the real deciding factor for Jack, I think, but his love of life (even at its saddest) comes back. Manifested in this case by love of Harkness, but there's more to it than that - including love of Tosh and a sense of responsibility for her, and the same with Torchwood, and the same with the world.

[filkferengi]

You're not fooling anyone; we all know *which* doctor[s] you'd rather be visiting. ;)

Hope you're feeling better by now.

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

we all know *which* doctor[s] you'd rather be visiting

Oooh, so right!

Hope you're feeling better by now.

Thanks! I'm still coughing and dead tired, but getting better every day.