Moment of triumph....

[fajrdrako]

Something nice happened at the bank yesterday. I was doing theatre business and one of the assistant managers called over to me from her desk: "I know your secret!"

"Eh?" said, I feeling a little like Clark Kent. Er... which secret is that?

"I saw you walking," she said. "I was driving to work, and there you were, walking beside the canal. I'd been wondering how you lost all that weight. It's from walking, isn't it?"

I was absurdly gratified. She had noticed. I'd been feeling.... not down, exactly, but I'd had moments lately of thinking, "all this work, and there's hardly any difference." Of course I know there's some difference: I wear a smaller size of clothes and my clothes from last year are clownishly big on me. But I can't see myself as I look to others; I still feel thick and flabby. But there is a difference, even if I can't see it.

Comments

[ladykardasi.livejournal.com]

Good going! Good for you. Wish I could get around to losing weight.

Still - Yay You! Straighten your back and feel proud. I would :)

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

Thank you - the moral support is very gratefully received. Losing weight is amazingly difficult and I don't seem to be very good at it. But it feels so good to do it - it's worth every ounce of effort! Thanks again.

[meri-oddities.livejournal.com]

Isn't it great, though. I know how you feel. I'm way smaller than I used to be, but it's hard for me to see it. You looked great when I saw you. I hope I remembered to tell you that. :-)

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I'm way smaller than I used to be, but it's hard for me to see it.

Yeah. I think I'm not very good visually, especially with people. Intellectually I know there's a difference, but when I look in a mirror I just see "me" - good or bad. It's hard to judge. It doesn't help that I'm a little mirror-pobic and don't look into them if I can help it.

You looked great when I saw you.

Thank you! You were looking terrific too. When I think about it, I'm proud of us both.

[meri-oddities.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I know just what you mean about seeing me. I never thought I looked that bad when I was really over weight. Now, I don't think I look that much different. I don't ever see myself as thin, even though I know I were quite a number of sizes smaller than I did before. It's just me.

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

That's exactly how I see it - for both of us - I really can't remember you looking any different. I guess I need photographs to keep track of things! But I think it's a wonderful thing that we're both in better shape - in just about every way.

[lmondegreen.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you mean. When I look at myself in the mirror I only see the weight I still need to lose.

You do look fabulous!

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

When I look at myself in the mirror I only see the weight I still need to lose.

Yup, exactly. The weight loss feels slow and insufficient - but that's because I see myself every day and the daily changes aren't perceptible.

You do look fabulous!

And so do you! A big pat on the back for each of us, and hearty thumbs up.

And we can say to ourselves: It's working, it's working!