FIC: Torchwood (drabble) - Outlook

[fajrdrako]

Title: Outlook
Author: fajrdrako
Fandom: Torchwood
Characters: Jack/Ianto
Challenge: tw100, challenge: resurrection
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not mine, no claims, all property of the BBC.
Notes: Spoilers for Torchwood episode 1x04, "Cyberwoman". Cross-posted to my lj, and to tw100.


Outlook

First, Ianto had died at Lisa's hand, and had been resurrected by Jack. Everything was the opposite of what it was. Lisa became the enemy; Jack, the lover and mentor.

Death was an escape denied him. "I almost destroyed the world. How can anyone live with himself after that?" he asked.

Jack's hand on his shoulder was a comfort. "I did it once. Lose yourself in acts of courage."

"I don't think I can. Help me."

"I can't," said Jack. "Healing is something that happens inside you. All I can offer you is love. But I have plenty of that."

Comments

Re: Gabbling about Ianto...

[cionaudha.livejournal.com]

I can gabble about Ianto for DAYS.

Yes to all you say, and your icon shows the storm not far beneath the calm.

I cannot begin to imagine how terrifying it must have been, the first time Ianto gave himself to Jack. To finally go through with it... the shame, the guilt, the self-justification, the determination, the awkwardness, and no doubt a treacherous pleasure.

Did Jack feel something for him, or was he just psyched to get a sweet piece of virgin tail?

God, I just want to hold him. (I know, that's Jack's job.)


I seem to recall from Euros Lyn or GDL that Ianto's orientation issues will be somewhat addressed in S3. (As well as the source of his anguish, whatever that is.)

I would love to read the explicitly Christian dialogue that was cut from Ianto's scenes over the course of S2.

Re: Gabbling about Ianto...

[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I can gabble about Ianto for DAYS.

I suppose I can too - as I am probably proving. And what fun it is!

To finally go through with it... the shame, the guilt, the self-justification, the determination, the awkwardness, and no doubt a treacherous pleasure.

Sure. If it had been simply a torment, a self-sacrifice, Ianto could have tolerated that - anything for Lisa's sake. But to actually like it, to be truly attracted to Jack, to actually like him - it must have set up any number of levels of pain and guilt.

Did Jack feel something for him, or was he just psyched to get a sweet piece of virgin tail?

I think there are three answers for that. One is that Jack doesn't necessarily differentiate - liking people comes easily to him, loving people comes easily to him, and sex is his favourite thing, casual or otherwise. So to him, especially the first time, there's a lot of caring in the mix.

The second answer: He really liked Ianto.

The third answer: Jack himself had been through a hard time. He'd had lover(s) and friends at Torchwood who had been murdered by a friend. It was a new century and the Doctor still hadn't come for him. He was trying to cope and I think he was really, really vulnerable at that point - he needed someone like Ianto, to understand and love him - as well as offering lots of sex. And I think this is why he didn't look to closely at what Ianto was offering. He wasn't suspicious because he was needy himself. Jack had been trying to hold himself aloof and he's really, really bad at that - he needs companionship, he needs sex, he needs someone to share fun with.

As well as the source of his anguish, whatever that is.

...Intriguing.

I would love to read the explicitly Christian dialogue that was cut from Ianto's scenes over the course of S2.

I didn't know about that. I wonder what it was?