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[fajrdrako]

Let's just pretend the whole of last week didn't happen, shall we? I think I spent the whole week struggling with pain, trying to control pain and trying to ignore pain. I admitted defeat and went to my doctor; now I am scheduled for tests. I hate tests almost as much as I hate the pain.

There hasn't been much room left over for doing anything. I read something today by Martha Beck that I could relate to:

,,, Eventually my ability to process all the demands on my attention disintegrates, and I spend entire days doing what cartoonist Scott Adams calls "multi-shirking", just sitting around feeling guilty about all the connections I'm not sustaining.

Do you ever feel like that?