Strange day...

[fajrdrako]

I had an epiphany today, which is only strange because it's the same epiphany I've had before.

As a prelude: I've been studying runes lately, picking a rune each day to study and learn. Today I picked one before work, but didn't have time to look it up before leaving home.

At lunchtime, I had a fascinating conversation that made me think: Yes, that exactly is how I should be living my life and what I should be doing. It isn't a new thought - it's the same one I've been holding since I was six years old. But I haven't found my way to doing it yet. Why do epiphanies not come with instructions attached?

How can you have the same epiphany over and over, and it still doesn't take?

Later on, I looked up the rune, and it said it meant: the sun, life-force, the path of one's life.

That seemed appropriate.

Comments

[chronarchy.livejournal.com]

I occasionally have consistent epiphanies.

Though I prefer to describe them as "being hit full in the face by the cosmic searchlight of truth".

But there are certain things that cause me to go back to the way I felt before, after I've forgotten it.

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[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

"being hit full in the face by the cosmic searchlight of truth".

What a good way to put it!

I don't forget the epiphanies.... They are haunting. I just don't know how to change my life to fulfil what is necessary....

There will be a way. The cosmos keeps kicking in the butt to get on with it.

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[chronarchy.livejournal.com]

I can't claim the phrase, unfortnately. It comes from a story called "The Tinfoil Noose" that I read in high school. It's really good, if you ever get the chance to read it. Unfortunately, I don't remember the author.

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[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I looked it up on the Net. The author is Jean Shephard, which has various books by him, though not (as far as I could see) that one. It seems to be on a lot of school reading lists - I'll keep my eyes open for it.

[elynross.livejournal.com]

Maybe you only have the epiphany once, then you have a repiphany.

I think they can easily recur, if we don't hold on to them -- if we let them fall back into the undergrowth in our mind, to be hooked up again later by a confluence of ideas/meanings/contexts. And epiphany that we take to heart, that we integrate into our lives, becomes part of the weave and texture of our life, no longer under the surface and hidden. Unless we start taking it for granted and lose it again, I suppose.

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[fajrdrako.livejournal.com]

I am convinced that I will find a way to integrate my epiphany into my life - I just don't know how! But if it were easy, well, it wouldn't be very meaningful, I guess. Working on it....